So much for not getting super fat this pregnancy ...
I'm huge!
I saw myself in the reflection of my kitchen door & my heart sank.
I am a baby making whale!
I have to give myself credit - I haven't gained anywhere NEAR what I gained with Teo - But I was also still 30lbs over weight when I got pregnant again.
I feel a fat girl meltdown coming on :(
Monday, January 28, 2013
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Mommy & Daddy Date Night
Brett and I don't EVER ask anyone to watch Teo unless it's absolutely necessary ( ie; work related, dr's appt related ) We're very selfish when it comes to him, we like to include him in our lives & don't feel limited when it comes to socializing because we have a child. If it's something we can't do with them then normally we're just not interested in doing it. We're selfish in the fact that often times we're uninterested in sharing him - heh - We'd rather be with him then pawn him off on someone else or give someone else the pleasure of being in his company!
With that being said - Brett and I have been seeing a preview for a movie that we've wanted to see, which is rare. We're more the " wait until it comes on Amazon Prime " types than the let's rush out to the theater to see it... That is until we saw the preview for " Mama "
With that being said - Brett and I have been seeing a preview for a movie that we've wanted to see, which is rare. We're more the " wait until it comes on Amazon Prime " types than the let's rush out to the theater to see it... That is until we saw the preview for " Mama "
So - I'm going to go ahead and throw it out there if you are in the mood for a scare with a splash of sadness - GO SEE THIS MOVIE!
Brett and I really enjoyed ourselves, even though we missed the Little Man like CRAZY!
Friday, January 25, 2013
Naps are for BABIES
And my 1 year old is no longer a baby ... According to him that is.
Gone are the days of multiple naps during the day thus allowing Mommy to take multiple naps during the day. He still goes down for 2 naps, and sometimes a lucky #3 - but boy oh boy - he fights it! I know you're thinking, wait a minute that is multiple naps.. but I was more referencing the multiple naps a newborn takes ( roughly 10 a day )!
Exhaustion will be pouring from the poor child & he will still try to walk about, play, laugh, etc ... As he gets sleepier he gets clumsier, so then more than ever he should be wrapped in bubble wrap
& wearing a helmet.
So now, for nap #2 - I'm taking him upstairs to lock him away in his baby dungeon in hopes that he'll peacefully drift off when I damn well know he's not going down with out a battle.
Gone are the days of multiple naps during the day thus allowing Mommy to take multiple naps during the day. He still goes down for 2 naps, and sometimes a lucky #3 - but boy oh boy - he fights it! I know you're thinking, wait a minute that is multiple naps.. but I was more referencing the multiple naps a newborn takes ( roughly 10 a day )!
Exhaustion will be pouring from the poor child & he will still try to walk about, play, laugh, etc ... As he gets sleepier he gets clumsier, so then more than ever he should be wrapped in bubble wrap
& wearing a helmet.
So now, for nap #2 - I'm taking him upstairs to lock him away in his baby dungeon in hopes that he'll peacefully drift off when I damn well know he's not going down with out a battle.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Ribs are made to be Jungle Gyms
My daughters feet live in my ribs.
Her hands constantly punching me in the Vagina,
and her little tush tucked along my left side.
I'm going to be really honest;
I'm getting nervous.
I know that people I say that to probably think to themselves " Um .. She probably should have thought about that before she went and got pregnant again so quickly." but that really has nothing to do with where the nerves come from. I made this decision, and I'm thrilled with it, but for anyone not to be a little bit nervous about bringing another baby into this world would be crazy!
I am not nervous about the child birth - I actually look forward to it strangely, it's such an empowering and liberating thing, not only as a woman can I create a life ( with the help of my partner of course ) but I can bring that life into this world. The human body leaves me in awe, absolute awe.
I am not nervous about caring for a newborn - I've done that! It's like riding a bicycle, once you learn you have that knowledge for life. 26 years after having me my mother knew exactly what she needed to do to help care for my newborn son, almost 50 years after having my mom my grandmother knew exactly how to care for my then infant son. It just a knowledge you will forever posses.
I am however nervous about Teo feeling left out, betrayed, confused and jealous. My little Prince is the center of our universe, my little Star, the Spotlight shines on him. So, with everything else needed to bring a child into this world harnessed safely under my Mommy Belt I will have to learn how to be the mother of 2 children. I will have to learn how to equally spread my time amongst them, how to equally shine a Spotlight on each of them, how to nurture them both, teach them both and to also find time to shower love/affection on my partner.
When I successfully accomplish the above mentioned - THEN - I may refer to myself as " Super Mom "
Her hands constantly punching me in the Vagina,
and her little tush tucked along my left side.
I'm going to be really honest;
I'm getting nervous.
I know that people I say that to probably think to themselves " Um .. She probably should have thought about that before she went and got pregnant again so quickly." but that really has nothing to do with where the nerves come from. I made this decision, and I'm thrilled with it, but for anyone not to be a little bit nervous about bringing another baby into this world would be crazy!
I am not nervous about the child birth - I actually look forward to it strangely, it's such an empowering and liberating thing, not only as a woman can I create a life ( with the help of my partner of course ) but I can bring that life into this world. The human body leaves me in awe, absolute awe.
I am not nervous about caring for a newborn - I've done that! It's like riding a bicycle, once you learn you have that knowledge for life. 26 years after having me my mother knew exactly what she needed to do to help care for my newborn son, almost 50 years after having my mom my grandmother knew exactly how to care for my then infant son. It just a knowledge you will forever posses.
I am however nervous about Teo feeling left out, betrayed, confused and jealous. My little Prince is the center of our universe, my little Star, the Spotlight shines on him. So, with everything else needed to bring a child into this world harnessed safely under my Mommy Belt I will have to learn how to be the mother of 2 children. I will have to learn how to equally spread my time amongst them, how to equally shine a Spotlight on each of them, how to nurture them both, teach them both and to also find time to shower love/affection on my partner.
When I successfully accomplish the above mentioned - THEN - I may refer to myself as " Super Mom "
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
100% Baby Meat
I don't know if I could possibly be any more infatuated with my little boy ..
The kid can do no wrong.
He's the most amazing little person I've ever seen.
End of story.
He's my 100% Baby Meat!
The kid can do no wrong.
He's the most amazing little person I've ever seen.
End of story.
He's my 100% Baby Meat!
When Making Girl Babies
Things are a little bit different.
With both of my succesful pregnancies I knew what the sex of my baby was before it was actually confirmed. Not sure if I have some strange baby sex whispering ability but regardless, I knew Teo had a penis & I knew Emma had a vagina. End of Story.
Now having been pregnant with one of each sex I have discovered vast differences in myself in accordance to each baby ...
For example:
With Teo I was bat shit crazy, well .. Let's be honest, I'm bat shit crazy all the time - But man it was
amplified while I was pregnant with him. I was aggressive and angry, and I assume that was due to the over production of testosterone while I baked boy baby. I had ZERO sex drive, hated my pregnant body's appearance and really wanted to generally gouge my husbands eyes out daily.
And now with Emma - Things are SO different! While yes, I'm still crazy - It's nowhere near as bad as before. I am not aggressive, I'm overly sensitive & insecure, but still passionate and loving. My sex drive is RAGING ( my husband calls me a Dirty little MILF ) and I'm so much more comfortable in my skin this time around ( the insecurities I was talking about before don't fall in my appearances, that's more underlying bullshit that I just can't seem to kick ). I feel sexy, I want to be sexy, and I want to be worshiped.
I've enjoyed being pregnant with both my son & my daughter - Regardless of the ups & downs that come with each, but I just find it interesting how when creating different sexes you are affected differently.
I guess it really makes sense though right?
With both of my succesful pregnancies I knew what the sex of my baby was before it was actually confirmed. Not sure if I have some strange baby sex whispering ability but regardless, I knew Teo had a penis & I knew Emma had a vagina. End of Story.
Now having been pregnant with one of each sex I have discovered vast differences in myself in accordance to each baby ...
For example:
With Teo I was bat shit crazy, well .. Let's be honest, I'm bat shit crazy all the time - But man it was
amplified while I was pregnant with him. I was aggressive and angry, and I assume that was due to the over production of testosterone while I baked boy baby. I had ZERO sex drive, hated my pregnant body's appearance and really wanted to generally gouge my husbands eyes out daily.
And now with Emma - Things are SO different! While yes, I'm still crazy - It's nowhere near as bad as before. I am not aggressive, I'm overly sensitive & insecure, but still passionate and loving. My sex drive is RAGING ( my husband calls me a Dirty little MILF ) and I'm so much more comfortable in my skin this time around ( the insecurities I was talking about before don't fall in my appearances, that's more underlying bullshit that I just can't seem to kick ). I feel sexy, I want to be sexy, and I want to be worshiped.
I've enjoyed being pregnant with both my son & my daughter - Regardless of the ups & downs that come with each, but I just find it interesting how when creating different sexes you are affected differently.
I guess it really makes sense though right?
Monday, January 7, 2013
When you were a Year Old ....
I was amazed by every little thing you do.
You've grown into the most amazing little person I've had the pleasure of knowing.
You're smart, funny, loving & kind. I never imagined someone so young could possess these traits, that is until I met you.
You fill my heart with never ending amounts of happiness & I've never known a love like this before.
As we fast approach your First Birthday I can't help but well up with tears.
Tears of Joy, Tears of Happiness - Maybe with a touch of sadness.
This 1st year has flown by so quickly.
It feels like yesterday your Daddy & I brought you into this world. So new, so innocent, so unknowing.
Today you walked to me, not for the first time - But every time I watch you move on your own I just watch you in awe.
It feels like just yesterday all you could do is lay there, looking around with your big brown eyes. So focused, so alert, so observant.
I knew you'd be brilliant from the 1st moment I met you.
Yesterday you hugged me, a genuine hug. A hug just to thank me for being there and for being your mom.
It feels like yesterday I could only hug you, and hold you, and cuddle you, and keep you warm, Because that's what you needed, and that's what my instinct told me to do.
And now, you are learning how to show affection of your own.
Each and every day you look at me, and your dad, with such appreciation for us being your Parents. You give us purpose, you fulfill us and in turn you look at us with an appreciation unmatched by any other. The love you've given to us will last a lifetime.
As I wish you off on your First Birthday please know my little boy that this is so bittersweet for your Mommy - This First Year has been so amazing, all the memories of you being this little soul will never be replaced, never replicated and unfortunately never relived.. a moment captured in time, always cherished, always and forever.
While you continue to grow, and learn, and move forward with your life please know my sweet boy that you were created of my flesh and blood, of your Daddy's flesh & blood, pieces of us to be carried into eternity through your children and their children and so on ... You are our Destiny - and we love you, are so proud of you & can't wait to see you grow into a young man.
You've grown into the most amazing little person I've had the pleasure of knowing.
You're smart, funny, loving & kind. I never imagined someone so young could possess these traits, that is until I met you.
You fill my heart with never ending amounts of happiness & I've never known a love like this before.
As we fast approach your First Birthday I can't help but well up with tears.
Tears of Joy, Tears of Happiness - Maybe with a touch of sadness.
This 1st year has flown by so quickly.
It feels like yesterday your Daddy & I brought you into this world. So new, so innocent, so unknowing.
Today you walked to me, not for the first time - But every time I watch you move on your own I just watch you in awe.
It feels like just yesterday all you could do is lay there, looking around with your big brown eyes. So focused, so alert, so observant.
I knew you'd be brilliant from the 1st moment I met you.
Yesterday you hugged me, a genuine hug. A hug just to thank me for being there and for being your mom.
It feels like yesterday I could only hug you, and hold you, and cuddle you, and keep you warm, Because that's what you needed, and that's what my instinct told me to do.
And now, you are learning how to show affection of your own.
Each and every day you look at me, and your dad, with such appreciation for us being your Parents. You give us purpose, you fulfill us and in turn you look at us with an appreciation unmatched by any other. The love you've given to us will last a lifetime.
As I wish you off on your First Birthday please know my little boy that this is so bittersweet for your Mommy - This First Year has been so amazing, all the memories of you being this little soul will never be replaced, never replicated and unfortunately never relived.. a moment captured in time, always cherished, always and forever.
While you continue to grow, and learn, and move forward with your life please know my sweet boy that you were created of my flesh and blood, of your Daddy's flesh & blood, pieces of us to be carried into eternity through your children and their children and so on ... You are our Destiny - and we love you, are so proud of you & can't wait to see you grow into a young man.
I love you my sweet sweet boy, Happy Birthday.
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